Thursday, 11 October 2018
Behind the Scenes!...This is where I am sitting and what I am doing
Pay careful attention to what is done quietly. That which is manifest in material form takes time (and Spirit!) to come into being!
I am away from Ireland for a month, something I decided to do and book less than a few weeks before I travelled. I love my freedom and I live (mostly) in the moment and day to day, and decided to both enjoy some down time and move into solitude to get some work done. I took one week holiday time and now 3 weeks work time.
I was blown away by reaction I got on Instagram due to posting some photos of my experience in Hong Kong. I don't have notifications turned on, on my phone, so on going into the app one day I had 14 private messages and on another day 20!! This overwhelmed me completely, not something I normally get. Some where from friends, some knew I was going away, some didn't, as I don't feel the need or necessity to make announcements. Some were from people I don't normally get messages from at all. Human curiosity is natural of course, but I got, 'where are you, why, with who etc instead of 'looks great, wonderful experience, enjoy, stay safe'.
I'm completely 'aware' and 'intuitive' – some may call it 'psychic' I can read, see and hear between lines, and behind words, I can see energy and through the veil, I can feel everything (hence the overwhelm at so many energies in so many messages), I can also 'hear'! (even peoples thoughts at a distance when they are directed at me – not just negative, positive Loving thoughts too, thank you!) So I'm deciding to share some more with you all to clear some things up.
It's not personal if I don't 'announce' what I am doing in my private life on a daily basis, I am so happy to share a certain amount when I feel drawn to yet I don't feel the need to share everything or to just share for the sake of it. I DO feel the need to share to bring awareness and to help!, and to hopefully inspire and guide others too. If it wasn't for this, I would not be on social media at all. To me it is a wonderful tool to share in a 'Light' way.
So here I am 'working' in Vietnam. Why Vietnam; it's warm, it's cheap, it's Asia, I was in Hong Kong and it was one of the closest and cheapest options to get an apartment on my own for 3 weeks. My day will consist of my own yoga and meditation practice, which includes coffee mediation! It will be a walk on the beach, in the sunshine or warm rain. It will be me on and off the laptop throughout the rest of the day, between meals and more meditation! I'll also take days off and do human stuff!
It's not all swanning about until the next training or next client, it's hard work in between! In choosing this lifestyle (for this moment) I have made sacrifices, yet I've made them consciously, in Gratitude, Love and Happiness. I believe Spirit works with and through me in this work, fully and completely, and this is not just me, I know how hard all of my sisters and brothers on this path work 'Behind the Scenes'. This is 'not' simply to those 'working' in a Spiritual based job, this is also to those constantly working in the Light in whatever it is that they do. To You All I Honour You, I Thank You, I Support You and I Love You too. It is a complete commitment to help and to live and fully embrace our Spiritual Path and our Purpose. It is a commitment we freely make and are rewarded for in so many ways, yet it takes 'time' to get here. We, who are helping others, have been through tremendous things on our path, mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually, and we committed to our own healing and Ascension, and this doesn't stop, it continues on a day to day basis!
It is in solitude and quietness I tune in so easily to God and my Spiritual team.
It is in humbleness I see His workings in these simple lifestyles in these Asian countries.
It is in unexpected ways I see the results of His work through me.
It is in learning to pay attention to background happenings, within ourselves and within others, that we tune in to ourselves and each other in the profoundest and most Lovingly Spiritual Way!
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It is in Gratitude I Give.
It is in Love I Share.
It is in Light I Speak.
Sending Divine Love
Thursday, 24 May 2018
I have had back pain on and off for years. I have had two disc protrusions, the first of which I was about 24 years of age and in emotional distress at the time, following a horrible marriage! The second disc protrusion was at 34 years of age through grief following the human loss of my Mam. Each and every ounce of back pain I have gone through between and since then has been due to emotional trauma.
Today, I suddenly realised what this physical pain was I have been carrying for about 18 months now! I knew it was energetic and not due to any physiological reason (I even have the MRI to prove it). I have been extra emotional this last couple of years too (more, I feel, than my Empath self should be, I'm talking extreme emotion) and felt that my soul was crying out to get my attention for some reason I couldn't put my finger on. Turns out the two pains are more than connected. I am blown away at how simple this is and always has been but I choose not to see it or go into it; because I am not an angry person!
Well it turns out I am!
Following a conversation with my intimate partner last night I knew immediately he was talking sense, (he does this!). I have been working my way through every energetic / spiritual / healing tool I have in my box but I have been missing one simple thing; logical psychoanalytical recognition of what this pain is and why it is there.
I have been repressing feelings of anger!
It really doesn't matter why, it's the acknowledgement of the feeling that's there, admitting it and honouring it. Saying that here is what I came to realise on the 'why' on contemplation so I can no longer hurt myself.
I am annoyed for a few reasons;
I have been holding myself back to not hurt others and to let others shine.
I have been rejecting myself because I let others reject me and allowed them to make me feel small.
I have been letting myself feel small so my Light couldn't shine.
I have been protecting myself with this pain from 'feeling' and 'being' fully, and from any possible future 'pain'.
I have been afraid of letting my light shine!
I am annoyed at myself for doing these things to myself yet I was continuously doing them! Well no more! As I meditated on it, and realised this I felt a shift. I stood up and went to my yoga mat (in a bikini - something I wouldn't typically do) and began to practice a powerful yang physical yoga that I haven't been able to physically practice in a long, long time! I moved and the pain moved more!
These realisations have come to me now because of the Past Life Pain I cleared in association with all the above feelings that was stuck deep in my cellular DNA and were presenting themselves in this lifetime for complete healing! Unless I had cleared the Past Life Repressed Pain I wouldn't have cleared this current pain! I feel Free!
I got angry! I am human! I am spiritual!
No more pain!
I am a beautiful bright soul and I let my Light shine!